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[Only a moment later, he's pulling away entirely, and Estelle's pouting and feeling very, very put out because why? She'd like the kisses and touches back, please.] Hey, hey wait--

[And in true Estelle fashion, rather than do something subtle to show she was completely ok--

She just reaches over, grabs his hand and places it right back where it was with a huff.] I didn't say stop!

[He's not sure what Estelle's reaction was going to be, but it certainly wasn't that. He's actually stunned for a moment when she grabs his hand and puts it back where it had been. There's a moment where he's honestly not sure what to do before he looks down where his hand is, and it finally registers.

She's completely okay with this...

...Um...]

I just... didn't want to cross boundaries?

[Sorry, give him a moment. He's still a bit stunned.]

[That stunned look on his face actually sets her off blushing again, because what was she doing maybe he didn't want to touch that bad yet maybe he--

Her hand falls away as she tries and fails not to devolve into a red face mess.]

Um... I mean... It's just....

Ikindoflikeallthetouchingandkissing and... well, if you did cross boundries, all I'd have to do is say stop, right?

[No, no he really did want to touch it. He just... yeah. However, after a bit of thinking, it's evident what he can do. He's down to two decisions, let this get awkward and ruin the mood they had started, or continue where he left off, which is seemingly the decision he's going to make after he says:] Then I'll trust you on that.

[...and moves in to kiss her once more. Just this time his hand does remain on her breast, giving it a gentle squeeze.]

[She's definitely flustered now, but that kiss is a much, much welcome distraction from her embarrassment right now, and she leans up into it once more. He can probably feel how heated her cheeks are, and he can definitely feel the soft intake of breath against his lips when he squeezes.

She's not quite sure how to gauge that feeling, really. It felt.... weird? Not bad just...]

[He's definitely in control of himself right now. The kiss is tame as he wants her to get used to the other sensation he's currently giving her. There's another gentle squeeze, after that his palm brushes a bit firmly against her. Unlike just a few moments ago, all of his movements are controlled, making sure he can respond readily to any signs she gives him or anything she says.]

[The tamer kiss is certainly welcome right now, as she considers the new sensation. Definitely not bad, but what was--

And then he goes from squeezing to brushing against her, and there's a cross between a gasp and a sound of surprise muffled against his mouth. She squirms, curling her arms up behind his neck again tightly, because ok, that did feel kind of nice.]

[He'll definitely take that as a positive reaction. As much as he'd like to continue exploring that, it's probably best not to overstimulate her right now (or stimulate her to a point of no return). His hands end up going down to her waist, placing them on either side of her hips. At this point, he has no intentions on pressing any more boundaries, content enough with that.]

[Estelle was certainly fine with that-- Just being able to hold and kiss Joshua like this was great, and she didn't want him to think she disliked it when he touched her, because that was completely wrong. Instead she deepens the kiss a little, pressing closer now that his hand has retreated, her forehead nudging against his.

Fingers return to playing with the hair at the nap of his neck as they cool down, a playful little habit she seems to be forming.]

[Feeling Estelle take initiative was definitely nice as his arms did wrap around her a bit to pull her a little closer. He likes this feeling a lot even if he still has insecurity. Thankfully, not as much as he used to have, but it's still there.

Still, she really does like playing with that little sensitive area on the back of his neck, doesn't she? Not that he minds at all. It's nice that they were able to continue on despite the potential awkward.]

[She liked this feeling, too. She didn't think she'd ever get bored of having her arms around him, having him this close-- and especially not of kissing him.

She wondered where else she could kiss?

Still feeling a little playful, she pulls away from the kiss slowly, lips catching on his bottom lip before she plant one on his chin, grinning up at him.] Can I try something too?

[He can feel her slowing down that kiss and pulling away. For a moment he thinks that's going to be the end of it and accepts it, at least until that action while she pulls away and kissing his chin. It's then that he realizes she has something up her sleeve. Usually, that would mean he had to do something to stop her, but in this case? It's kind of exciting.

So in response to that grin, after a bit of a surprised reaction, he's definitely giving her a gentle smile back.]

I don't see why you couldn't.

[He's honestly pretty curious to see what she wants to try.]

[She beams up at him, pressing another kiss to his chin. With permission given, she doesn't shy away from letting her next kiss fall a little lower-- right to the curve under his chin.

The next few kisses are along the same path: his adam's apple and the little patch of skin below that. She takes her time exploring, gently caressing his skin with her lips, learning the lines of him by touch.

She's kind of curious, honestly, to see what sort of reaction he'll have.]

[Feeling where she's tracing her kisses, he tilts his head up so she can have better access. The lower she goes, the more sensitive it is for him, especially over his adam's apple and lower. He lets out a noise of contentment as she explores. His own hands move to caress her back, gently encouraging her.

Of course, she probably had been doing the same to him when he got insecure, but hopefully she'll be more confident in her boldness.]

[That encouragement of Joshua's does help a little: Her fingers join her lips in her carresses, her lips for his throat, fingers for the back of his neck. She's actually kind of disappointed she can't go as low as she wants to his collar, thanks to his clothing-- but for now she presses a meaningful kiss at the edge of his top.

And then her kisses take a new direction, towards the side of his neck. He'd been kind of flustered last time she'd touched him there, maybe it'd feel good....?]

[He can definitely feel her lips going lower on his neck and wonders for a moment what she's going to do. Clearly, his top is the boundary for him that she doesn't want to cross and he respects that.

When her kisses change direction, he tilts his head to the side so she has room. He's responding positively to her movements and while she can't see it, there's a smile on his face. There's a gasp when she works more toward the side of his neck, so she's doing just fine. Along with that gasp, his hands had just trailed down back to her sides and one hand gives her waist a bit of a squeeze.]

[She can't see the smile, but his responses seem positive, and when he squeezes her waist she responds with a little nudge of her nose-- right against the curve of his ear.

She really liked the curve of his neck here, and her kisses slow a bit so she can properly show her appreciation-- lips following an arch from ear to what she can get at of his collar, brushing kisses along the skin she encounters. Not quite firm, but--

Was that a hint of tongue?]

[Little by little Joshua is starting to recognize this for what it is. It was natural they would progress this far, but it's starting to become more and more clear now.

Especially since he's pretty sure he felt tongue. Naturally, he thought she was innocent; still does. He's starting to realize that may not be so much of the case.

So he really wants to talk, but he also really doesn't want her to stop. It's definitely something.]

Hey, Estelle?

[The way his voice sounds, she's doing perfectly fine, but yeah. Yeah...]

[It was natural, for sure. This all felt natural to Estelle, to want to touch and kiss like this, as Joshua was probably realizing. Estelle was an affectionate person by nature.

But she's also attentive to Joshua's wants and needs, so when he speaks up she places one last kiss below his ear before pulling away to look up into his eyes, curious, though she notably doesn't unwind her arms from around him. He didn't seem uncomfortable or anything...]

Hmm....?

[Well, since he has her attention now, he takes a deep breath before tracing his hand up her side to then cup her face.]

How do you feel about getting intimate?

[He's definitely blushing right now because holy cow he can't believe he just said that. But it had to be said. If she needs time, if it's awkward, he'll give her that distance. And well, he's not going to beat around the bush either. It's best that he be straightforward about it since it feels like they've been beating around the bush even if nothing's really been said.]

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[Well, Joshua isn't the only one blushing at how direct that question was. Still, she doesn't seem startled by it, per say-- She doesn't redirect her gaze, meeting his own eyes.]

I....Um... well. [...Is that blush getting deeper? Her cheek probably feels plenty warm under his hand, but she's not shy about leaning into his touch either even as she stumbles over her words a little.] If you're asking if I've thought about being intimate with you, of course I have.

[Even if she does seem flustered, she's being quiet honest, as per usual.] Why wouldn't I?

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[That... was quite the confession. He knew her head was in the clouds sometimes, but he honestly didn't think she fantasized about that.

But after some initial shellshock, he just smiles.]

I'm not asking if you thought about it, I'm asking you how you feel about it. Though I'm happy to hear that you've at least thought about it.

[That's definitely really positive in Joshua's mind.]

[Fairly innocent fantasizing, but her brain wasn't devoid of those thoughts, at least.]

Wellll....

[She hums a little in consideration, sitting back slightly. As nice as it was to hold him right now, it made clearer thinking a little difficult, and she knew he wanted a clearheaded answer.]

I like touching you, kissing you, holding you.... A lot. [She smiles warmly.] You're the only one I want to be intimate with. But you're also the only one I've ever really... thought about being intimate with, you know?

[It didn't take growing up together for someone to know Estelle was inexperienced when it came to thinking about romance, let alone acting on those feelings. Maybe it was the early loss of her mother and her prime example in that regard, maybe it was because she'd already had Joshua by her side, but while other girls started talking about boys, Estelle talked about training, sneakers and fishing. Her life had felt perfectly complete without all of that for a long time.]

I know what to do-- [Schera made sure of that.] But I'm not sure how it's supposed to uh... get there? So I've just been doing what feels good when we're like this. And if it leads to more, well... I know what I want, and that's you. All of you, in every way. [She's still blushing, but there's no hesitation about her statement at all. She wasn't going to suggest they do that right now, but if things ever led that direction.... well, there's Joshua's answer.]

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[He doesn't mind her backing up a bit and lets her go while keeping a hand on her waist. She's right, he does want a clearheaded answer, one that says that she's really thought about this or perhaps think about it now to examine how she really feels.

So when she does speak her feelings on this, it makes Joshua smile. It warms his heart.]

Me too. You're the only one I've ever thought about being with like that. [Well, isn't this a blush fest. But his expression is soft, sincere, content.]

However, I feel the same. I mean, I know what to do, but... yeah getting there. [He laughs a bit. Relieved? Happy? Probably a mix of all sorts of positive emotions.]

And I also feel the same about wanting you, and all of you. [He's not moving in at all, since he's also not suggesting they do things right now either. Just knowing that they're both okay with moving in that direction is more than enough and elates him.

There's also sure red and pink roses popping up everywhere. Showing just how happy he is.]

[And there they both go-- Estelle is beaming at him, still blushing, but the air around them both is sparkling just a little bit with her happiness. She giggles when the roses pop up, twining the fingers of one of her now free hands with one of his. Those roses might be sparkling too, matter of fact.

She regretted not realizing his feelings sooner, realizing her own sooner-- thinking of how it'd probably hurt him. But at the same time, it warmed her heart to know he loved her so much, too.]

I think we'll just know when it's the right time, you know? Or.... mood, or whatever.

[Something like that, anyway. His contentment is mirrored on her own face, because not only hearing from his lips how he felt-- but hearing how considerate he was being of her, made her happy.] And when that happens, we both know what we want.

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